story time at church.

Yesterday I bought some peanut butter flavored m&m's that had strawberry flavor  magically added. I nearly jizzed in my pants after eating a couple. 

The reds have been awful lately and it doesn't look much better for them. Jay Bruce hurt his wrist and will be out for a couple of weeks. Joey Votto got thrown out of todays game and ruined his hitting streak of 12 or so games. They went 2-5 on a road trip before the all star break. Hopefully things will get better for them, I would like to have reason to go to another game or two this summer. 

The preacher at the new church I am trying out in hillsboro gives scripted sermons. Looking back, Father Byers sermons were not predictable but were more personable stories about his thoughts on the bible. Father Paraniuks sermons seem like he looks them up on some type of sermon database. They don't seem very overarching to a lesson that the bible should teach. The sermon yesterday was more like story you might tell at a party when you want to brag about your son. Hopefully he will get better in my eyes, I do plan to keep attending services there for a while. 

I was thinking today about how happy I may or may not be. On the plus side I am going to be a homeowner, work with my family, mostly get to do what I would prefer to do, and loaf and be as lazy as I want to be most of the time. On the down side, I am lonely most of the time, don't have a real career ambition, and am content to sit around and do very little. While I could be happier with my life, where I am and who I have around me are pretty high points. I have to wonder how finding the right person to commit my life will make me happier. Many people that get in relationships can seem unhappy, as if they are still expecting more from themselves. I don't know if the dissatisfaction comes from their partner or not, but I would like to think if I found the right person I would be all smiles all the time. Living life for just me is not very satisfying, I would like to think that committing to another person to try and make them happy would be very satisfying. This would ring true even more so if I were to ever have a kid, I instantly become less important and have someone that depends on me for everything. People that continue to live only for themselves seem pompous or unbelievable. I have to wonder about people who I see walking around in stores with more than one case of beer and kids following them around. I got to live for myself for almost 27 years now, and am ready for a change. 

I bought the "Only by the night" album by the kings of leon last night, and wouldn't you know it, there is a "use somebody" track and a "be somebody" track on the same cd. It would seem my commentator was correct to point out that "use somebody" was the song I was hearing on the radio. The CD is pretty good so far, I put it on my itunes and listen to the album songs when I want to now.