Vagary

vagary is described as an erratic or peculiar modification, act or thought. I get this sometimes when trying to think of ways to improve what we do on the farm. My dad and grandpa are pretty set in doing things the way they have always been done. I prefer to not have to work as hard and suggest easier or smarter ways to do things. They just look at me like I said the dumbest thing they have ever heard. It is now to the point where I don't offer any suggestions about what we should do, since my ideas are immediately shot down/destroyed by their harder not smarter logic. For example, I suggested to my dad the other day that we can feed all of our cows with round bales of hay and not have to bale a single square bale. In short, I will not tell them my idea about putting an elevator on the floor of the corn crib to move ears of corn from one end to the other end for some time. I really don't want to have to shovel corn to the feed grinder for the rest of my adult life. 

I sometimes wonder if I am patient enough. As a teacher or sub teacher  plenty of patience is needed. You have to go at a fast enough pace for the smart kids, while not ignoring the slower learners. I usually call my dad right before dinner time now to ask him what we are doing for dinner, when my intention is really to remind him that dinner is starting so I don't have to wait on him. When I have a certain timeline in mind, I want to stick to it, and people who are not following it aggravate me. Sometimes when I am watching a movie, if a slow part comes on, I almost fall asleep or check the internets for a while. 

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