lamentation

Lamentation is an act or expression of sadness or distress. I am not especially happy. Nothing I do makes me happy. I am going to finish the room I have been working on for a week, and have a new bedroom. That won't make me happy. I buy things that I want without any second thought. I can't stand to know there is something out there that could occupy my time that I don't have. When christmas and birthdays come around, I usually have nothing I want to tell people. I have dated two great girls and neither of them made me especially happy. I live near my family, and see them all the time, well that makes me happy most of the time. 

I think my main problem is how I occupy my time. If I have nothing to do. I sit on the couch and browse the internet. Sometimes I take naps. I should go jogging, or clean my house up, but I don't. Watching TV is depressing, there is very little on that is entertaining. I could spend some more money and get cable or satellite tv, but that won't provide me with anything better to watch. 

For some reason, I am usually annoyed when my dad or grandpa decide to do something. They are usually not interrupting me, but I grump around a little bit like I am mad at something. 

In new news, I am going to the reds game saturday night. My sister and her husband are getting their usual running crew together to go to the game. I'll go and make some small conversation, but will be more interested in the game. The reds are pretty well awful now, but baseball games are a nice distraction for me. I will have to attend a sunday service this weekend since I will be occupied saturday night now.