The first month

It has been a calender month since Royce has left us. Four weeks ago today we were all sitting around in shock about how one of us wasn't going to be with us anymore. I don't know for sure how I am doing. I visited the site of his wreck and now I wan't to look that direction every time I go by it from the highway. I haven't done any crying. I feel more and more remorse each time something comes up that reminds me of something he was around for. Amanda always describes how I am so even tempered with my emotions and this is really showing her point. I haven't been able to show any emotion. I do miss him, it is just slowly building to how much I really miss him.

The services we had in his memory were tremendous. The visitation lasted over eight hours and many folks waited in line for at least four hours. The funeral service ended up being very full and the procession had about seventy cars in it. My family has taken the initiative and purchased several more lots at the Mowrystown cemetery. My parents have a life insurance policy on all of us kids, so they were able to recoup the eight grand the funeral home got for all their services.

Farming wise things are good. I am renting all my ground this year so by this time next year I will know if I am going to be able to do enough as a farmer to raise a family. My dad farms about five hundred acres and that has been enough for his family. I only have about two hundred.

Today we are going to test Amanda for gestational diabetes. Starting in may we will be going to birthing classes and being prepared in that regards. Amanda has taken so much initiative on everything that by the time I feel I have a question or topic she is already an expert on the subject. I am glad that we were able to let her leave work and give her the time and space to prepare for our child. We are at thirthy weeks and the due date is going to be upon us sooner than we think.

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