In which I am not being very smart

My wife has picked up a trend that I have not yet realized. I get stuck on an idea in my head and commit to doing that idea without fail or others input. The issue is that I ask for input, and then purposefully ignore it. I don't know if this is something I learned from my dad. I have talked about our relationship on the blog before and Amanda has mentioned that he seems to do the same to me when he gets an idea. I am upset that I am doing this to her. On one hand, she wants me to make decisions and be the man of the house. On the other hand I want to involve her in decisions, but all she seems interested in doing is being polite and deferring an opinion. I haven't figured out how to negotiate such situations yet. Things progress around the house, she has a schedule in mind but is only willing to say the schedule once. I can't comitt them to memory right away and we get in the spot we are in now.

On a more exciting front, the baby bean is getting bigger and better every day. Amanda talked to the Dr. at the last appointment about her insomnia, and things have seem to have got better for her on that issue. It probably has more to do with the second trimester starting than any advice the Dr. gave her. I wish there was more she would let me do for her, but I am usually at a loss for when or where to offer assitance or comforts. We are planning on renovating the upstairs part of the house to better suit a third person. This means a bathroom, some closet space, and more bedroom square feet for us when the baby person grows into their own room. I am getting more excited about the baby as it gets closer and closer. The best part is how excited Amanda is to give me the updates and all the talk she has about everything else happening with her. We got some baby gifts for christmas this year and it is all becoming more and more exciting.

I am getting some full time work at the post office starting at the end of the week. The lady that I usually sub for is having some type of surgery and will need six weeks of rest. I like working and doing the mail, but after this committment I am going to have to consider full time work. The postmaster wants to train me on the other routes which will mean continuos work if I want it. I can't think that mail delivery or teaching is better or worse than the other. I think I might have an easier or quicker time with the teaching route so that will be researched more heavily. Mail delivery might be more dangerous due to all the miles on the road, but teaching is probably more stressful. 

I also managed to piss off my mom on christmas. Amanda wasn't up for more Hauke family time after all the thanksgiving and christmas events we attend. I talked ourselves out of going to one of her families events, and she wasn't up for anything more that day. I thought she needed more time and she would want to go to my parents last event. So I lied to my attending/wondering callers and said Amanda was sick and we would come by when she felt better. This lasted until about for about three hours before Amanda got angry and told me to go on my own. By the time I showed, most everything had happened, and my mom is now pissed at us for not fullfilling her desires to their totality. The worst part of it is mom was real excited about the gift that she had got Amanda and now neither one of them wants anything to do with the gift. Mom was also excited about the blanket that her aunt made for me when I was still in the womb. Mom gave it to me as a gift, but Amanda is indifferent to anything that occurs in such a manner. It has been setting in the box on the table ever since she told me didn't want to hear anything about anything that happened while I was there. I don't know when any of this will be resolved.

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Clocking In

It has been a while since I have last blogged. Things have been busy around here. The main busy part is between being a good husband and working up to being a father. Amanda and I are expecting a baby the first part of July. We have known since the end of october and have been making plans and working towards having as much ready as possible when the time comes. I am looking forward to it, being more of a family man and father is going to be a great challenge and thrill. I know that I have many responsibilites towards my wife, but a child that is dependent on someone else for everything is going to be a great experience. I think the best part of this whole deal is that I am going to help Amanda with her dream of being a mother. I think that is the most exciting thing of all this, getting to watch my wifes dream come true.

We have also finished all our crops and are having a really good year in that regard. I think I might end up losing money I my beans that I delay priced when the price was high. The way the market looks now, it might be lat summer before they get back to a price I would like. I need to be more cautious with my money if I want to wait until then to get how much I would like. My tobacco has been all worked over and sold. The tobacco sold real well and we got the new big baler that all the modern burley farmers are using. My brother and I pushed real hard for the monetary incentive and the labor savings. So far those seem to be holding up.

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