Malaise

Malaise means an all around feeling of illness or bad health without any exact cause. Sometimes I get to thinking to much and wonder if I have any real ambition. I am seemingly fine with making a career out of farming. Even with a college education, working all the time and making a good living are not a real priority of mine. I am barely ambitious enough to want to date anybody. I suppose I am to easily satisfied with my lot in life. I feel to good about not wanting much more out of life. I want better for myself, but let other people hinder me to easily. Eventually I will find or have something worth making a great effort for. 

Father Paranuik is starting to get a little bit better in my esteemed opinion. Last weeks sermon was actually pretty good and this weeks wasn't bad. He doesn't seem to take himself as seriously as Father Byers did, and that is not a good thing from my seat. 

In other news, I am actually a little pissed right now. I don't get angry very easy or often. The teacher that replaced me at eastern just got a big glorifying write up in the local paper. One or two sentences might have been in reference to the work I did, so I am not entirely happy about it. I did the principal and superintendent a favor by quitting grad school and saving them from not having a science teacher for that year. I knew going in it might only be a one year gig, but they knew told me I might be able to parlay that into more of a lasting job if I did well enough. It turns out that as soon as I turned in my resignation, they had a replacement ready to go, and probably had him in mind the entire time I was working there. I made an official resignation in an effort to not have a bad review that might hinder me from further jobs. It would seem that neither choice was helpful in getting me a job. I can't help but think that whenever someone calls those two I am not getting a good recommendation. Whenever I turn in a resume or application, it leads me nowhere. 

Times typed "oftern" -1