holy macaroni

I heard a good sermon today at church. The sermon was about all the types of things that the saints did and were and how they still became saints. Its good to know that the saints didn't always walk the way of God and made mistakes also. All that God really requires of his followers is to follow God with love. I don't know if I can say that without a doubt, but I am in a much better position for that than three years ago. I am in a better position than a year ago. I can't just decide that I am following with love, it would have to be more of a path than a proclamation.

In another case of holy macaroni, subbing at schools actually cost me money. Wednesday I went to the bank and got a hundred dollars in cash. Since then I bought a $22 dollar wreath, $8.50 worth of pies, $8 dollars worth of pork, gave bobby hill $20, and then I put $50 dollars in the collection basket. My wallet is emptied out and I am going to have to go get more cash for monday. I usually don't put that much in the basket, but didn't make it to church last week so felt I should double up.

In other news, I don't know what to do with myself not that I am sober more often than not. Last year, I would have gone to columbus for the buckeyes game and got drunk and passed out on my brothers couch. Now I set at home and watch movies and read. Sometimes I wait on dad and grandpa to be busy just so I have something to do. I haven't had any thing to drink since I went to the illinois game with kevin. Sobriety is healthier, but being as idle as I am is not. I could have gone to a halloween party tonight, but decided not to. I could have gone to some spaghetti fundraiser dinner, but stayed in instead. If I went out to somewhere where drinking wasn't an option, I would just get impatient and want to leave. I have gone and seen movies by myself, but prefer to go to times when I won't be seen and found out by any students or when I am expected to be home.

I also watched run fat boy run tonight. I have told myself before that it would be cool to run a marathon and hope to do it still someday. I am going to pace myself slowly and work up to the distance. 5k, 10k, half marathon, then maybe full marathon.