Ecclesiastes

Well I finished another Book of the Bible today. I thought that Ecclesiastes was a very pessimistic chapter at times. We as a people do many things that are meaningless in the face of God. We think that what we are doing can make us happy, when often times that is not the case. At the end of our days we might end up in the same condition as a person who had a way different prospect on life. I took a good message from this book though. The only way to have meaning from life is to do what makes you content and satisfied. Don't try to compete with others and don't spend your life doing what does not satisfy you. I like teaching now because I like being able to help students and and advance their knowledge. Thinking that I can encourage someone is a good thing. I also really don't like trying to one up a person. It gets me no where and is really to much of a thought process to outthink someone. Let them have it their way and be happy. I am happy doing what others ask most of the time.

I have also been recently made to wonder why I turned to online dating. I think the best answer I can come up with is that I don't know that it won't work. If I knew how I was going to meet the one for me, I would be trying to achieve that. As it is right now, online is still a viable option. Sure, I can also point out how shy I am, and how there aren't many social options besides alcoholism around here, but why should I hang my hat on those and give up. I think I will make a great boyfriend and then husband and family man. I can't wait to get started with that part of my life. I can't just quit because I haven't found and also convinced a girl that I can and will be that person. I try or at least want to pursue other dating options. I go to my church. I would like to put myself out there where I can meet a good girl. That means going to concerts, perhaps a museum, maybe even volunteering. The key is the more I increase my visibility, the better chance I have at meeting the one for me. I can also point to sub teaching. I never know who is going to have a niece or cousin or know someone that might be a good fit for me. I might even get lucky and find a teacher somewhere that could go for me. The key is just getting myself out there and letting myself be vulnerable. Whenever I am browsing profiles, I often think to myself "nothing ventured, nothing gained." If I want something to happen, I have to be willing to let it happen.

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